Late night

I am up quite late once again.  It's funny how many times I've thought to myself, 'Oh, I'll be in bed before 2am, no problem.'  Then I look at the clock and remember how ridiculous it is to think that I would be able to do that.  I am happy that tonight I was able to fix my slip-ons somewhat, hot glue is the answer.  And I got some stuff put together for the CCC College Group, like a fb page and a twitter.

Now, it's time for bed.

Healer

You hold my every moment
You calm my raging seas
You walk with me through fire
And heal all my disease

I trust in You
I trust in You

I believe You're my Healer
I believe You are all I need
I believe You're my Portion
I believe You're more than enough for me
Jesus You're all I need

Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
Nothing is impossible for You
You hold my world in Your hands


I was listening to this song tonight.  Wow, to know that God holds us in His hands.  That nothing, NOTHING, is impossible for Him.  Ponder, meditate, and wrestle with this truth.

Nothing is impossible for God and He loves us so much that He holds us in His hands.

Listen to Healer (by Hillsong) on YouTube.

Missing India

Today I was stopped at a train crossing on the way to get my dad from work.  It reminded me of India.

We crossed a lot of train tracks in India, but only once or twice did we actually have to stop because a train was passing by.  To really picture this though you have to know Indian traffic.  Well it is made up of motorcycles, cars, bicycles, camel carts, scooters, vans, makeshift cars, and such.  Now, when Indians stop at train tracks, and really just when they stop anywhere, the motor cycles try to make it to the front of the line and the rikshaws also try because they are small.  Now the only reason this is possible, because unlike the US, India does not really have traffic lanes.  It's every man and vehicle (or camel or horse) for himself.

Our team leaders had explained all this.  So one day we were stopped at the tracks in a rikshaw.  And because the trains take forever to pass the the crossing, the vehicles continued to pile as close to the track crossing bars, as was warned.  And so once the train passed it took us forever to get past the crossing and intersection next to it.

So ya, today reminded me of India again.  I really enjoyed that trip.

the lost are found

//I really, really like this song, especially for the lyrics//
//Here is a video form with lyrics: The Lost are Found (YouTube)//

Everlasting
While Earthly ages fade
In mercy
Our God Your kingdom reigns

Lord over everything
You are near
All of the universe at Your feet

In the Saviour
Injustice brought to right
For Your glory
That Your name be lifted high

Lord over everything
You are near
All of the universe at Your feet
Lord over everything
You are near
All of the universe at Your feet

The lost are found
The blind will see
The lame will walk
The dead will live
And You Are God
Forever You will reign
The lost are found
The blind will see
The lame will walk
The dead will live
And You Are God
Forever You will reign

His thoughts are higher (way higher) than mine.

I've been reading Chan's Erasing Hell (which is very interesting) and one of the things he is pointing out in a chapter is from the well known verse in Isaiah 55, "Your thoughts are greater than mine."  I know most all of us have heard this once, twice, ten times, a hundred times but how often have we really thought about what this means.  This means that we have no right to question His ways.  We have no right to say, "Sorry God you can't do that, it is not right."  Because if we in fact could tell God what was right than that means we must be greater and higher than Him in every way.  But we aren't.  We are His clay, His creation.  We cannot tell Him what is right and what is wrong.  He created morality, not us.  He truly knows what is right to do and what isn't.  Because if He did not, would He still be God?

I cannot tell you how many times I have heard this Isaiah verse and how many talks I have been given on it.  Yet so many times I am the first whether verbally or, more often, mentally to say, "God, how could you do that?  How could you be okay with just wiping out a whole group of people?  Where is the justice in that?"  And please do not get me wrong here, I believe He still wants us to question and wrestle with what He has done.  I do not think the Isaiah passage encourages us to shut up and follow His orders and reasoning like we are merely wound-up toys.  He has given us a mind and a heart to reason, debate, discuss, and wrestle with such topics of His character, His will, His methods of dealing with His people, etc.  Let's not forget though that He is still God.  And let us not dawn this mindset that we can fully understand God to the point that we can say and preach, "Oh, God would not do that!  Or, He cannot have done that?  That's not fair!'  God is justice.  He is love.  He is all-powerful and all-knowing.  We must not forget this.  And this post above all is written to myself.  I need to remember that He is God and He does know.  He has the future plans taken care of.  Should I seek Him by learning and wrestling through His decisions?  Absolutely.  Should I take on this arrogant attitude that I must be right in thinking that He should have/cannot have done that?  Nope, I am not God.

"For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways, declares the Lord." Isaiah 55:8.

Worth.

A lot of the time I judge what I do, or I quantify what I do, by some thing's worth.  Sometimes that means I will go to Starbucks to try and get some reading/work done or I will stay home and nap because I need to re-energize myself.  The funny thing is a lot of the time I miss judge some thing's worth because I am always trying not to waste my time (though if someone were to look at my facebook consumption they might say otherwise).  And I think a lot of it has to do with how I value things.  I think I need to put a little more time in correctly determining some thing's worth then just trying to make every aspect of my life efficient. 

I need a job.

So I've been waking up later than normal, like 10 or 11am.  And my days have seemed shorter as a result.  There really isn't much structure to my day.  I am taking an online class so I can work whenever I want.

So I need a job.  Haha.  I need some more structure in my days.

I would definitely appreciate prayer for this!