For 18 years I have seen people graduate and move on. My friends and brothers have gotten on stage and received their diplomas. I just never really thought I would be up there. I mean I knew it was coming, but it never seemed like it would come. I do not feel ready to move on. I should not be allowed to. There is still so much I should know before I go off to college, or that's how I feel anyway. I would not mind re-doing (or just spending more time in) my highschool years. Some of you are probably like, "You're crazy! I have waited for this day since I began highschool!" And that's great for ya. I just am not there. I wish I would have taken more advantage of my highschool years, but I just did not. I wish I had spent more time building relationships and not worry about unimportant things.
So yes, this is where I'm at. It's crazy. Graduations is tomorrow and well I cannot go back and relive these past 18 years. I would just like to enjoy it and realize that, yes, I have come this far and it's time to move on. I cannot always stay in my comfortable spot. I need to be put in situations that will cause me to grow closer to Christ.
By the way, sorry I have not posted in a while :/
3 comments:
Even though you're not ready, congrats on finally finishing!
Hey Matt,
Sigh I know how it is to just wish you could go back and do things over again, or just at least relive some memories. God doesn't give us that option though. He just wants us to learn from the past and to keep moving on in life. I can't imagine how unsetteling it must be to know that your graduating tomorrow and you still don't know what your going to do and where your going to go, but just keep trusting God because he'll show you what He wants you to do. Just take it one step at a time.
-Katrina
PS:Happy Graduation!!!
Matt,
I know EXACTLY how you feel! I was feeling much this way on the eve of my graduation. And you know what? God has been way MORE than good to me this past year. I know he's pretty fond of you, so I have no doubt His goodness will be near as you progress to the next stage of your life! :)
P.S. Have fun tonight! It's a memory in the making.
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