Sitting in Basic Astronomy right now. Teacher slightly droning on about terrestrial and jovian planets. So what am I doing? On the computer of course.
I was perusing the pictures from the Thrive 2010 All-Nighter and thinking about back when I was in high school. I cannot believe I am not in college when I think back to earlier days. Life was interesting then(still is...haha). But I just think about who I was and about friendships. It was crazy in high school. I worried about where I stood with friends and things for me could hinge on a single conversation. I wanted to be popular and liked by all, of course (who doesn't/didn't?). And my world really revolved around youth group and other church activities as well as school.
I don't have much to write, really just what was above. It was just interesting seeing those pictures and thinking about when I was in high school and never really thought college would happen...and now I am here.
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Monday, March 22, 2010
Airports.
So I am sitting here in the Hartsfield-Jackson Atlanta International Airport awaiting the Angola Team to return. I drove with Aaron Stinson up here from Jacksonville, FL to see them return. As of right now, 8:24pm no sign of them, but praying that they will be here soon.
Airports are crazy places. I love them, but they are indeed insane palces. Peopl going; people leaving. Tensions high. Muscles relaxed as loved ones re-unite. I love these hubs of bustling action.
As I wait for the arrival of the team there is a knot or some uneasyness inside my chest. I'm just waiting for the team to turn the corner to where they will become visible for me to relax. But until then I'm tense.
This trip has been a ...Chris, husband of one of the girls on the team just called and the plane landed. It's 8:28pm. Praise the Lord! Uneasyness residing. Such great news... The trip was full of turmoil and rough patches. Yet I believe it was full of amazing times and changes that rocked the team's world. That's what I hope and pray. My processing of all of this has been mixed. But I just have to come back to Romans 12:15, "Rejoice with those who rejoice; weep with those who weep."
Praise the Lord we returned safely to Jacksonville; everyone is pretty wiped out, though. Got to hear from some of the members who traveled back in the car I was in. Cannot wait for you guys to hear from the team. It's going to be great!
Airports are crazy places. I love them, but they are indeed insane palces. Peopl going; people leaving. Tensions high. Muscles relaxed as loved ones re-unite. I love these hubs of bustling action.
As I wait for the arrival of the team there is a knot or some uneasyness inside my chest. I'm just waiting for the team to turn the corner to where they will become visible for me to relax. But until then I'm tense.
This trip has been a ...Chris, husband of one of the girls on the team just called and the plane landed. It's 8:28pm. Praise the Lord! Uneasyness residing. Such great news... The trip was full of turmoil and rough patches. Yet I believe it was full of amazing times and changes that rocked the team's world. That's what I hope and pray. My processing of all of this has been mixed. But I just have to come back to Romans 12:15, "Rejoice with those who rejoice; weep with those who weep."
Praise the Lord we returned safely to Jacksonville; everyone is pretty wiped out, though. Got to hear from some of the members who traveled back in the car I was in. Cannot wait for you guys to hear from the team. It's going to be great!
Friday, March 19, 2010
Friendship
So I as thinking about friendships the other day. We often (well I do anyway) put values on friendship. What value exactly I am not sure. But some immaterial value. And I keep score. You have this many points. She has this many. He has this many.
Haha...I'm just kidding. But, seriously. I was thinking about this because recently I have, haha who am I kidding for as long as I can remember I have held friendships at some value, been evaluating people's value to each other. And not good values, like a person should have certain values. No, these values are how we see ourselves and others in our eyes.
So, for example, I was thinking about some friends away right now. And one of them is this guy I have met and am getting to be pretty good friends with. Well another of my friends went on the same trip. And I am worried that because those two friends went on this trip they'll be even better friends than I am with the first guy. And to top it off I'm having to work with being upset with the second guy because he is dating another of my friends. That's all well and good, but it makes me jealous I don't have a girlfriend...haha.
If you just read that and are like huh? That means you're probably normal. Besides the fact that I used so many ambiguous terms. First off though, please hear this: I love all those people. It's just I'm having a hard being happy for them and the experiences that they are going through. They are on a missions trip right now. I know I am a jerk. I mean really. They are on a mission's trip! It has been a bumpy ride for them and I know God has blessed them in so many ways. I won't lie. I am jealous of what they are experiencing together because I know their friendships and relationships will be even stronger as a result of that. And I want that to be my prayer, but my selfishness is stubborn.
What it comes down to it, it is me swallowing my pride and selfishness, and joining in on the joy they have experienced that I must come to. It's so hard knowing that something great went on and you were not apart of it. You missed out. I know God had a reason for sending only those who went and not sending those who did not go. But it's rough. As I wrote this I thought of Romans 12:15, "Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep." And that's just it. I know I should be happy but it's going to take work. And of course weep and be sad with those who are going through hard times. That is as well hard because I could just say, "No, I won't be sad. I'm not on that trip, so I don't care if their flight got delayed." No, no, no! This attitude is so wrong. I should be sad and weep. They are my friends...my brothers and sisters in Christ!
I just really wanted to express that and get it out. If you think of it and would prayer for my attitude, that would be very much appreciated. If you could pray that I would just be filled with joy and excitement at what this team experienced and what God did and is doing through them. As well if you would just pray for the team's safe return. They are in Angola and will be returning Sunday evening.
Haha...I'm just kidding. But, seriously. I was thinking about this because recently I have, haha who am I kidding for as long as I can remember I have held friendships at some value, been evaluating people's value to each other. And not good values, like a person should have certain values. No, these values are how we see ourselves and others in our eyes.
So, for example, I was thinking about some friends away right now. And one of them is this guy I have met and am getting to be pretty good friends with. Well another of my friends went on the same trip. And I am worried that because those two friends went on this trip they'll be even better friends than I am with the first guy. And to top it off I'm having to work with being upset with the second guy because he is dating another of my friends. That's all well and good, but it makes me jealous I don't have a girlfriend...haha.
If you just read that and are like huh? That means you're probably normal. Besides the fact that I used so many ambiguous terms. First off though, please hear this: I love all those people. It's just I'm having a hard being happy for them and the experiences that they are going through. They are on a missions trip right now. I know I am a jerk. I mean really. They are on a mission's trip! It has been a bumpy ride for them and I know God has blessed them in so many ways. I won't lie. I am jealous of what they are experiencing together because I know their friendships and relationships will be even stronger as a result of that. And I want that to be my prayer, but my selfishness is stubborn.
What it comes down to it, it is me swallowing my pride and selfishness, and joining in on the joy they have experienced that I must come to. It's so hard knowing that something great went on and you were not apart of it. You missed out. I know God had a reason for sending only those who went and not sending those who did not go. But it's rough. As I wrote this I thought of Romans 12:15, "Rejoice with those who rejoice, weep with those who weep." And that's just it. I know I should be happy but it's going to take work. And of course weep and be sad with those who are going through hard times. That is as well hard because I could just say, "No, I won't be sad. I'm not on that trip, so I don't care if their flight got delayed." No, no, no! This attitude is so wrong. I should be sad and weep. They are my friends...my brothers and sisters in Christ!
I just really wanted to express that and get it out. If you think of it and would prayer for my attitude, that would be very much appreciated. If you could pray that I would just be filled with joy and excitement at what this team experienced and what God did and is doing through them. As well if you would just pray for the team's safe return. They are in Angola and will be returning Sunday evening.
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