the end.............

Alright, so that is a little dramatic, but none the less true as of tonight.  

Tonight my soccer team suffered a deadly blow by TFA Orlando.  We began District's tonight and came out with a loss.  Unfortunately it was a one-game elimination and tonight we lost 2-0.  

When things come to an end, depending on the activity, event, etc., we do not necessarily no where to go from there.  I was kind of in a zombie-mode, if you will, after the game.  I mean I was not falling apart or totally out of it, but there was a realization that I'm done.  After three seasons (well years) of soccer, I am done, for high school anyway.  Looking back on the three years, they were good.  I went from being a novice at soccer to being a slightly smarter novice :) and built friendships that otherwise probably would not have existed if it weren't for two goals and a round object known as a soccer ball.  I just want to thank all those who were involved from the beginning that I started playing up to tonight, the last game I will play for my high school career (well the last one of the school season).  I want to thank the guys on the team, through fun and hard times thanks for just being my teammates. Also, thank you Coach Lauretta for all the time that you invested in the team.  Those are countless hours that will never be lost and could not be bought.  I also want to thank Coach D, Coach Sherman, and Mr. Clean :) for all the time you put into the team.

While it is not "the end", it is the closing of soccer for the 08-09 year.  I just want to wish the best for those who have yet to graduate and I hope next year is even better than this year!

Verse for now:  "Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us." Hebrews 12:1

thinking about blogging......

I was thinking about blogging and, well, wished I had some witty and/or humorous stories to blog about.  Seems my posts are just not that engaging, which is ok, but not the most interesting.  Hmmmm.....I'll have to work on that.

Anyway, I have some good news.  My throat is feeling better.  Praise the Lord!  It is not 100% back on track, but getting there.  Great timing, too! (with it being the beginning of the week:))

Verses for now: "For you created my inmost being; you knit me together  in my mother's womb.  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." Psalm 139:13-14

it's been a while............

.......since.........well you know.........I posted:).  Sorry it's been so long.

I guess a quick update would be that school, work, and soccer are in full swing for the second semester.  In fact, soccer is almost done.  Crazy!?!?!  Friday night we had our Senior Night.  Each year the seniors get to experience some sort of crazy shenanigans on Senior Night.  This year, the seven seniors on the soccer team travelled through "Middle Earth", dressed in our Lord of the Rings-esqe costumes.  We had to protect the golden soccer ball and get it from one end of the field to the other, basically.  It was a good idea and put together excellently by the parents of the seniors.  Additionally, we have Districts starting Monday and then after this week, and maybe another, I'll be done with soccer.  It's bittersweet.  It's been good to build relationships on the team, but I have missed youth group because I have had soccer.  

School's been progressing........slowly but surely.  I am basically done with my first semester on both my FLVS classes and am already making ground in English.....Precalc is lagging behind though.  I would always appreciate prayer to keeping pushing to finish this semester strong.  :) Senioritis can be a powerful thing.  

The college search/applying process is en route, but moving at a slow pace.  Ack!  I really need to finish those.  

Work is going fine.  We are going to be doing webinars for Accordance soon.  We had a trial run today.  It is a pretty neat thing.   It is not the easiest thing to set up, but it'll be nice when its done.  This way people do not have to travel to go to a seminar and our oversea customers can participate as well.  It is basically a seminar on the web.  So yes, work is going good.  I have nothing to complain about:)

Other than that, more recently my throat's been nasty to me :( and has not been feeling the best.  Hopefully it will get better soon. 

With that said, life just continues to be busy.  It gets hard to find time to do what's important in life, besides school and such.  Hopefully I can realize that somethings are worth being done each day.  Taking the time each day to spend with God is important and that often gets thrown to the way side.  Also, I have realized that it is hard to slow down a bullet train and direct it in another direction and get it back up to speed.  I have found that going through hard times is tough and getting yourself back on the right track can be even tougher.

life....doesn't have to be....no....isn't meaningless

I have been going through many things and either from hearing something, reading something, or God's hand at work I have come to realize something.  I have a probably known this but just never registered it.  When you live life with a double standard (saying or acting one way in front of people and then totally not holding to that standard is in your own mind as to what you think, watch, listen to, look at, etc.)  the line between what reality is and what you have led yourself to believe ends up being muddled, or simply destroyed.  At that point it is hard to find where you really are and even more difficult to go back and fix all that is messed up.  That is where the difficulty of it all really kicks in.  You really cannot do it without God.  Without Him, life is meaningless and cannot be changed, altered, etc.  With Him we are given hope and a reason to rise each morning.

Verse for now: "Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer." Romans 12:12

marriage, part 2

Well, this probably does not even count as a part two and will not be deep enough either :). I attended Heather and Michael Margio's wedding today. It was nice. The decorations were good. The food was chosen well:). The people were even better (had to say that though hahaha...no, but, they are!). Don't weddings get you thinking? (whether married or single) For married couples they may be returning to thoughts of their wedding and such. (this is just a guess as I have never been married.) Singles, like myself, have a different train of though, obviously! What is marriage like? How will I know when to get married? Am I ready to jump into all that marriage requires (not to say that marriage is not amazing, but I know it is no walk in the park)? It is a big step. I hope as I get married (and boy do I hope I do) that it will be great and amazing. However, I have been finding or observing that my expectations for things and the reality of what my life is rarely are two roads that turn into one. I mean not to say that I will not be so happy at my wedding, but the ideas I had do not look as if they will ever happen. I do not think that is necessarily a lack of something on my part, but a lesson to be learned in life. A hard lesson.....but one we all need to learn. Those were just some of my scattered thoughts after having attended a wedding today:)

Verse for now: "In his heart a man plans his course, but the LORD determines his steps." Proverbs 16:9

one of the many subjects I am very clueless about.......

relationships.........I have never been in one.  How do you know if that is the person you should spend the rest of your life with?  How do you know when to tell someone you like them?   Why are they so complicated?  When is a good time to begin (not that time solely matters, but should it be high school? college?) ?  So many questions.........