life....doesn't have to be....no....isn't meaningless

I have been going through many things and either from hearing something, reading something, or God's hand at work I have come to realize something.  I have a probably known this but just never registered it.  When you live life with a double standard (saying or acting one way in front of people and then totally not holding to that standard is in your own mind as to what you think, watch, listen to, look at, etc.)  the line between what reality is and what you have led yourself to believe ends up being muddled, or simply destroyed.  At that point it is hard to find where you really are and even more difficult to go back and fix all that is messed up.  That is where the difficulty of it all really kicks in.  You really cannot do it without God.  Without Him, life is meaningless and cannot be changed, altered, etc.  With Him we are given hope and a reason to rise each morning.

Verse for now: "Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer." Romans 12:12